This is a guest post by Emily Litvack. Emily is a graduate of the McGill School of Environment. She has been involved in various environmental research and management projects in Canada and abroad. She is currently engaged in various community organizations and a program director at Teva Quebec, Montreal’s Jewish environmental organization. In her spare time, Emily dances in a Montreal semi-professional dance troupe and teaches dance to children.
I’m 25 years old, an environmentalist, a dancer, vegetarian, female, Canadian (and American by birth) … and Jewish. Like most 20-something Jews (and as many Jews of any age do), I wrestle with my Judaism; it is an ongoing struggle to find that comfortable and meaningful place where I can be proud of my Jewish identity without judgment of myself or others, that place where I can feel included and not alienated from my community.
Recently, I finished reading The Year of Living Biblically by A.J. Jacobs. The book, for anyone who hasn’t read it, is hilarious in a neurotic Woody Allen sort of way, but also incredibly touching and relevant. Personally, I felt a strong connection with the author and the anguish he put himself through – for a good portion of my early twenties, I did my very best to become orthodox. I would “take on mitzvoth” (as they say in ba’al teshuvah circles) by the dozen. Yet, there was always a nagging feeling that I wasn’t doing enough, that I should do more, that I wasn’t a good enough Jew… it was a tormenting feeling.
So when I read about A.J. Jacobs’ journey, I felt for him and his struggle to find meaning with all the rituals, ceremonies and nonsensical laws we are told to perform and abide by. What I loved about this book was Jacobs’ honest realization as he finishes his year of “holy living” (whatever that means) that we can’t do it all. It’s impossible. No one, not even the most devout person, can do everything the Torah tells the Jewish people to do. In a way (and I hope this won’t be taken the wrong way), every Jew is a “cafeteria Jew” – we choose what we connect to, we pick what’s relevant to us, what inspires us, or makes us feel closer to our parents, grandparents, great-grandparents… Whether it’s lighting the Chanukah menorah every year or making sure to set aside pre-cut pieces of toilet paper before Shabbat, there are parts of Judaism that we want in our lives, that make us say “I am Jewish.”
Finding those special parts of Judaism that speak to us is a difficult process that is ever-changing as we are. However, I have had opportunities that have helped me figure out the points where Judaism and I click. I spent a lot of time at Livnot U’Lehibanot in Israel. To anyone who has been a chevra at Livnot, you can attest that this is a very special place, a real gem. Based in the mystical city of Tzfat, Livnot leads programs for recent graduates who are (yes it’s cliché) searching for meaning and direction. I was drawn to Livnot because many of their programs are set in nature (not to mention that their rooftop has the most breathtaking view in all of Israel). Having graduated in environmental science, it sounded pretty awesome! I spent two months there, hiking, volunteering, helping to build community. It was there that Judaism and I clicked.
I started learning about Talmudic laws and Kabbalistic notions regarding how to treat the environment and nature with respect. All of it jived with the concepts of sustainability I had been learning about for four years! I even remember coming across something a medieval rabbi wrote about how to use resources that may as well have been straight out of the Brundtland Commission’s Our Common Future, where sustainable development was first coined! That will blow your mind mamash. While most Jewish ideas were (and still are) bewildering to me, these ideas were ones that I could support, internalize and carry out. So my attempt to become frum was very unsuccessful. It didn’t matter because I found something I could take with me, around which I could create my Jewish identity with happiness and confidence.
Tu Bishvat or the New Year of the Trees is coming up. While this holiday is considered a minor holiday (especially when it comes along in the dead of winter here in Canada), it’s pretty special to me. Progressive Jewish movements have popularized Tu Bishvat by calling it Jewish Earth Day. Some people would argue, “the earth is everyone’s, how can there be a Jewish Earth Day?” But, that our culture even has a day, with rituals dating back to the 17th century, to contemplate our place on Earth, our impact on the Earth, and our connection to the Earth demonstrates that protecting nature, and maybe even environmentalism, has a very real place in Judaism. It’s definitely a holiday I can wholeheartedly celebrate… even if it is freezing outside.
If you and Judaism also click through a love of nature, Teva Quebec is holding “Tu Bishvat Canada Style! Mont Royal Snowshoe Tour for Jewish Earth Day” on February 12th from 1:30 – 4pm. The tour will be guided by an environmental educator from Les amis de la montagne … and it will be followed by hot chocolate! For more information, check out www.tevaquebec.com.